“But if I say, ‘I will not mention His word or speak anymore in His name,’ His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.” (Jeremiah 20:9)
Despite being raised in a family that loved the Lord, I turned from Him after high school and pursued the “kingdom of self” over the “kingdom of God”. Of course, while my choices temporarily smothered His all-consuming nature of love within me, the embers remained. And then in 2002, after a decade of His gentle blowing, the fire was rekindled as my heart was wrecked afresh with the Gospel, the “Good News”, of His amazing grace.
The next decade was filled with an insatiable desire to know Him more. The same way a fire craves oxygen, so the fire within me craved knowing Him and serving Him. I studied, taught classes, and my love for others increased. Teaching, leading, and caring – indeed, I was doing what He had called me to do. Little did I realize that the fire was about to grow, and He was still gently blowing on the embers…
In 2013 the Lord replanted us from Denver into the communities of Trophy Club/Roanoke, serving at FBC Grapevine. Then, through a series of various relationships, mentoring moments, and events that only the Lord could orchestrate, in 2015 He revealed a glimpse of His future: church planting. WHAT?!
“But Lord! I am not smart enough,” I protested.
“Go to school, and I will continue to teach you.”
“But Lord! I am an insecure introvert. Unskilled! Inadequate! Incompetent!”
“…Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant…” (2 Corinthians 3:4-6a)
“But Lord! I am blind. Where? When? How? With whom?”
“And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them. I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground. These are the things I do, and I do not forsake them.” (Isaiah 42:16)
“But Lord! I simply do not know what to do.”
“But rise and enter the city, and you will be told what you are to do.” (Acts 9:6)
So now, in conjunction with Vision 2020 and through patient obedience, we are trusting Him and proceeding into the city of Roanoke and the town of Trophy Club to proclaim the Gospel of His grace and make disciples. While there are many more unknowns than knowns right now, He continues to demonstrate His faithfulness and provision. He continues to teach, lead, and blow on the embers. “His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.”
Soli Deo Gloria (To God Alone Be Glory)!